Okay...this is really weird...but...

Whenever I get my period, my LEFT FOOT cramps up really badly the day before and during. I don't get it! Is there some weird nerve connection between my cervix and foot? It's really perplexing!

Occasionally, when I have an orgasm, my left foot will twitch as well.

What's going on here? I'm so confused.

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2008/11/18/194559/27

Two essays from Ayn Rand's The Virtue of Selfishness are reprinted in Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal as the ethical basis for her moral defense of capitalism. "Man's Rights" and "The Nature of Government" are pedestrian defenses of a natural law conception of man's natural rights and of a concept of government that mixes enumerated powers and individual rights with the Weberian concept of the state. In positing individual rights and enumerated powers as defenses against arbitrary exercise of power, Rand employs arbitrary qualifiers in her concept-building, rendering her definitions of crucial terms meaningless for both practical and political purposes.

In December I am moving into a new house with a HUGE backyard. Like I was wondering why the house was so expensive, and then I saw the yard, and went, " Ohhhh." It's huge.

So I have garden patches planned out. Cooking herbs, good smelling herbs, veggies, fruits, flowers, medicinal herbs (I have a five foot tall aloe plant that needs to be re-potted very very badly), and poisonous herbs. Things such as hellebore, belladona, deadly nightshade, death cap mushrooms, so on and so forth.

Only a little part of me is wondering if any of these are illegal to have growing in Portland. I've searched the webs, but they keep giving me stupid goth kid websites and I am sick of seeing 'look at my rad poeumz/pictures in the graveyard' links.

So if someone with plant knowledge or merely a link could help me out, that would be super rad.

And if you want anything come next summer, I'd surely hook you up. (If you're gonna poison your loud roommates, though, I didn't give you the shit.)

To begin, I have been having "issues" medically for over a year now, which consisted of pain much like cramps, amongst other things - and am perscribed HBC (monophasic generic Sprintec brand) to be taken and STACKED so that I do not get a period (unless I feel I would like one, and then she said to take 4 of the placeo pills rather than 7) as my OB-GYN thinks the pain could have been connected to my menstrual cycle, though my pap and such came back perfectly normal. So, I am on birth control.

Background, I have been on birth control since I was 16, except for about 4 months from the end of aug (when my boyfriend and I began to break up) until the end of Oct (about a month after my current boyfriend and I began our relationship, which may I add, is much healthier). For the month I wasn't on birth control, and was sexually active, we used condoms every day. I have now been on BC again for about a month and a half.

The pain hasn't subsided, which I suspected as, after finding out there are no cysts or anything present, I decided it wasn't my ovaries. Two and a half weeks ago, I started pissing blood, and was sent to the ER. I had a kidney infection, (no sign of a UTI and I've never had one in my life, the infection just set on fast in the middle of the night) and was given Antibiotics through an IV (they began with a C but it's not coming to me right now) and then a course of antibiotics for 7 days. I continued to be sexually active and chalked up the pain ive been having for the past year or so to my something being wrong with my kidney and have an appt. with a specialist to see if we can solve that.

Now, the past month has been a rough one for me. In October my boyfriend and I found out that a girl he used to date was pregnant with his child. I was devistated - for my own personal reasons - and she wanted to keep the child. In any situation, I feel I could not have an abortion, so I supported the situation, and even told the girl I would be there for her because if I were to be around, I'd be raising the kid too I suppose. This brought my boyfriend and I very close, and we both were in the agreement that we wished the child was mine.

At 9.5 weeks (having conceived in August), she miscarried. She's passing it naturally, and as far as I know it has been going well.

I had been feeling much better after the antibiotics, my kidneys havent hurt that badly. As I stated before, my OB-GYN has me perscribed to stack, which I used to do all the time so I wouldn't get my period, but every time i did it before I at least had break through bleeding. I have yet to get any spotting, and probably would have gotten my period about a week or two ago. For the past few days, I have felt nauseuss.

It first hit me the other night, I came home and ate a big bowl of honey nut cherios and sugar, and then instantly felt the urge to puke. I passed it off as not having an appetite or stress (my father just showed up and is living in my one bedroom apt with me and my grandmother, sleeping on my bedroom floor, so i've basically become charlie bucket) and went to bed.

The next morning I woke up, nauseus as well. But I could hold it back, I just had the nagging urge every once in a while to vomit. That night, at my boyfriends, I was waiting for him to bring me home, and had the urge again, and felt emotionally, like I wanted to cry and go puke - I held it until I got home, and then threw up.

Yesterday, I felt nauseus as well, and I have cramping in my stomach, and HEAVY discharge, kind of like, boogerish consistancy and thick, white/yellow - globule-like substance - enough that I checked once to see if it was my period, and that when wearing dark underwear it almost has the "bleaching" effect. Last night, driving to my boyfriend band practice, I all of a sudden, again, was nauseus and then got slightly blurred vision. I'm starting to feel very tired and sluggish as well.

Also, in the past few weeks, I've noticed I pee a bit more. I'm the type of person who normally doens't pee at other people's houses, but I have had the urge to pee enough that I have to take the bull by the horns and follow through.

Josh has stated straight out, "You're pregnant, aren't you?" I talked to my sister yesterday, who I havent seen in years, and is younger than me, and told her I wanted her to call so I could talk to her, and she instantly asked, "You pregnant?"

I do not want to take a test. This is why -

I want the baby. If I'm not pregnant, after going through everything with the other girl being pregnant with his child, and feeling like he was starting a family without me, and how desperately we wanted it to be us who was having the family, I'm going to be disappointed if I'm not. I realize that antibiotics compromised my protection, and I did leave my pack out in the car over night during 20 degree weather (if that matters) but I also realize that I have been ill with the infection so it could be me being sick and perhaps should go to the doctor for that, instead. But I don't want to know that im not pregnant.

I know that probably sounds ridiculous, and my neighbor just fed me a special rice crispie treat about a half hour ago so Im starting to ramble, but the thought of me being pregnant feels so comforting right now, that I'm afraid to know that I'm not if it's just me being sick. I suppose if I were I'd only be a couple weeks along, as I wasn't showing positive while at the ER back around the 5th.

I dont know if I'm looking for support, or advice, or wondering if these signs would lead someone else to believe im pregnant, I just feel like I need to put this somewhere. I've never had a family, so when the idea of something like that forming inside of me is there, the thought of it not really being there at the point where I am right now, is akward for me. I feel like, if I were to be pregnant, this is what it would feel like.

One of today's Google quotes was:

I have read your book and much like it.

--Moses Hadas

I confess it took me a moment to get it. All three quotes in the database are snarky - this guy shoulda been a DPer. But it got me to thinking about left-handed compliments.

What's the worst left-handed compliment you were ever given? Mine was, "I'd like to ask you a question, because occasionally you have good insight."

calling all lawbreakers:

ok so i HAD a perfect driving record, until i was on the last forty miles of my drive from the bay to pdx and i was zipping merrily along through approximately springfield (i know, total speedtrap, i had forgotten). i got pulled over in a construction zone for going 85 in a 55 zone. i had a kid who had to pee and a ferret who was sick of his little box and listening to the dickies and...well you know. we were ALMOST HERE!!!!! the cop didn't double my fines because of my perfect record (i got away with going fast for SO LONG!!!), but i did get A $243 ticket.

i had to stay with a friend for a few days, then move into a new place, and the last time i saw my copy of the ticket i had 'temporarily' placed it in the cup we use for toothbrushes, in our new bathroom. HUH. where did it go? i have gone through bathroom trash *EW* and still not found it. yes i washed my hands. it is very possible an overzealous roommate from kentucky did something useless with it, out of the spirit of goodwill. damn the road to hell and it's good intentions, i say.

my court date is on the third of december, and i have been considering going to it to at least arrange payments (working in a trip to cougar hot springs while at it), but now i have no idea where to go, which county it was in (who the hell pays attention after being on the road for 10 hours straight?), or what. here are my Q's:

1) how do i find out the info i lost if i don't have any record of it?

2) what happens if i do not go and do not pay? first born child? car repo? i have only had one ticket and that was in texas and i just figured i'd never go back and well. i haven't. and it's been fine. but i live in this state now, and drive often.

3) does the po accept payments?

4) does the excuse 'weasels ate my speeding ticket' work around here?


HAAAAAALP!!!

edit to add: i am normally very on top of this sort of thing, but this month has been non stop running around and getting a million things taken care of.

Book #51
Book Title: Beach Girls
Author: Luanne Rice
Category: fiction; romance; chick lit
# of pages: 428
My rating of the book, F- [worst] to A [best].: C+
Short description/summary of the book: (taken from amazon.com):Like a milder Northern cousin of Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood, Rice's latest (following Dance with Me) celebrates the near mystical persistence of female bonds. While summering in the seaside town of Hubbard's Point, Conn., Emma Lincoln, Stevie Moore and Maddie Kilvert, the titular beach girls, were inseparable, but as adults, they've drifted apart. Stevie lives like a hermit in Hubbard's Point, unaware that her old friend Emma died in a car crash, leaving behind a husband, a child and secrets. When widower Jack brings his daughter, Nell, to the Point, Nell searches out her last link to her mother: Stevie. A bestselling children's author, Stevie is drawn to Nell and her attractive dad, but the protagonists must struggle with doubts and fears before they can consider a future together. This book is more sentimental and less suspenseful than Rice's previous novels, and fans of her earlier book, The Perfect Summer, may find the premise—a spouse who dies suddenly, with secrets that leave family in disarray—overly familiar. Fortunately, Rice's gorgeous descriptions and sensitive characterizations compensate for those flaws. Few writers evoke summer's translucent days so effortlessly, or better capture the bittersweet ties of family love.

My Thoughts: This was not one of my favorite Luanne Rice books. The storyline was ok but the book seemed to drag on quite a bit. I think if it had been a shorter book it could have honestly been better and I would have given it a higher grade.

Books read this year: 51/50.


Next read(s): I just started reading Sea Glass by Anita Shreve.

Hey lovely people. One quick question: I came off HBC about two weeks ago, and last night I noticed that I was spotting - only a tiny amount, but still definitely blood, although it seemed to be old blood. This is normal, right? And if so, how long can I reasonably expect this to go one for, because, well, it's annoying.

Thanks!

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I posted a week ago, but now I have more questions. So here's the deal:
- I've been on HBC (Diane 35) for 5 years, I take it on time every day.
- I was on antibiotics for a few days (Cloxacillin).
- I took my last antibiotic pill 12 days ago.
- I took my last contraceptive pill in the packet 10 days ago.
- I got my period one day earlier than usual, is that a concern?
- I took the first pill of the new packet on the first day of this period, just to be sure (I shortened the placebo week, but that's not a problem).
- The period looked alright & normal, but it usually lasts 5 days and today is the 7th day and I'm still bleeding (just a bit, pantyliner is enough).

So there are a few strange things ... The period coming a day early, that's never happened to me, and then being this long, a week now? Is it because I shortened the placebo week or smth? Should I be worried that I'm still kinda bleeding?

My bf and I used a condom during this whole time so there was extra protection. I've taken my 7th pill yesterday and it's been nearly two weeks since my last antibiotic soooo I should be protected, despite the strange bleeding/spotting, right??

Please help me with some advice, I really want to have proper sex again (not a fan of condoms) but I don't want to worry if smth might be wrong. :(

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Few days ago some Russian artists sent to the YouTube's administration the letter. Its content was: "Some user mistakenly declared inappropriate content in our video. In the video was shown performance of our art movement. This video was shown on television of St. Petersburg. Accordingly, it could not have unacceptable content. We demand immediatly re-establish our movie for public viewing and bring us apology for the violation of freedom of speech!" They received the answer that YouTube supposedly can not find their account. And now, without any explanation, their account completely removed. Such a cynical attempt to freedom of speech and expression can not be ignored. Russian artists intend to write a letter of protest to YouTube and publish it in order to everyman who are outraged such acts able to sign.
LONG LIVE ART-REVOLUTION!

                                          

i need an affordable, good place to get my kitten fixed. prefferrably downtown/nw.

Anyone know where I can buy some paint brushes past 8 pm in the downtown area?

Not housepainting brushes, acrylic painting brushes.

thanks.